Alicia Marie Lambert

And Finally, The Sun I See

acrylic and mixed media on 30" x 60" canvas

I created this painting while I transitioned from being a victim to a survivor. The names represent the people, places and artists that helped me heal and stay alive. 

X  

The X's were drawn over some of the places my ex physically assaulted me. As the scars, bruises, and scrapes have faded, I want people to remember that people are walking around with invisible pain.

My cat, Lucille, is pictured because she too was effected by abuse. Some research finds that 89% of women who had companion animals during an abusive relationship reported that their animals were threatened, harmed, or killed by their abusive partner.

Fuck You

acrylic on 20 x 30 canvas

This represents the rage I feel when I perceive loss of control or power over my body and soul in relation to how others treat me. I don’t yell or use violence, instead I am assertive and take the high road, but deep down I want to scream.  CrossFit, dancing, and healthy relationships have helped me to gain autonomy, trust and my power back. I am able to give myself to others with gentleness and freedom, without fear.  

Hang On Baby Girl

acrylic on 36" x 60" canvas

This painting represents the feeling of spiraling into sadness, confusion, and hopelessness. I'm seen reaching for the light. A photograph of myself when I was 11 represents my inner child. I pushed through dark days for us. My mom calls me baby girl, hence the title. The bottom of this painting has cards and notes between my ex and I and photographs with hospital records covering them.